I know you don't want to see a Dr and get drugged up(I completely understand the feeling) but that might not be what would happen anyway. Maybe therapy is a good treatment for what you are dealing with or maybe they will give you a diagnosis that needs treatment with drugs. But you have the choice if you want to accept the treatment then. If it is ruining your life it's probably at least worth finding out your options.

Good luck in whatever your choice may be!