Sky: By and large I have had good doctors (that is, good people practicing western medicine) throughout this debacle, they've just been trained by flawed medical ideologies. Never once did my doctors tell me that there was anything I could do for my head injury problems, they'd just repeat the same song and dance "get lots of sleep, don't drink too much alcohol, don't overexert yourself... blah, blah, blah". Well, when you haven't had a drink in a year, have been sleeping late every day, and haven't had a job in months, and yet you aren't healing at all, obviously their treatment plan isn't working.

The truth of the matter is that there are many forms of therapy that have been proven to be wildly beneficial for both PTSD and PCS, but doctors won't mention these because they're either too arrogant to recognize those therapies as being valid or they're entirely ignorant that those therapies exist in the first place. Most doctors have been trained under the defining creed "When all else fails, prescribe anti depressants", which could not be a more preposterously stupid philosophy. So yeah, I have problems with western medicine, not with the individual doctors that I saw.

The reason that I'm a "fascinating case" in the eyes of my therapists is that I didn't have any trauma to speak of growing up. My parents could not have possibly been better, I never sustained any serious injuries growing up (never even broke a bone), I was never in a serious car accident, my social life was healthy throughout my youth and adolescence, and to be perfectly honest I was having the time of my life when my trauma took place.

The only theory that makes sense in my case is that something happened to me before my memory was operating entirely that my body held onto, then that memory from my infancy synced up with my falling and hitting my head, setting off a catastrophic psychological chain of events. Basically, I was a walking time bomb with a very specific fuse that I just happened to ignite. In all likelihood my birth is what that root incident was, as it was an entirely traumatic birth by all accounts (I stressed several times, my mother's heart stopped at one point, a cesarian had to be performed, it was just a big mess), and the fall that I took was on my birthday as well.

So yeah, like I said, I'm a weird case.