Why do I not trust my own perception and feelings the way most people do? I hear people talk about their lives with such certainty.. I don't have that. I always wonder if I'm overreacting, if I'm over sensitive... if I'm crazy.
I would consider myself in a bad relationship. Abusive, according to friends and online forums. But I STILL feel like I'm making it up, like it's not as bad as I feel it is and that I'm just overreacting.

This is troubling for me because the uncertainty is stopping me from taking the leap to leave. I am on the verge of calling the police and asking for help as he won't leave and I cannot afford to (I work and pay for everything, he cannot find employment).
It would help if I actually felt confident in my decisions.. but I do not.
I never know what is real and what is not. Why do I live in this odd dream like world

I'm on antidepressants, before I started, i was severely suicidal. The medication takes the edge off and constant depression, but I still feel like I cannot make decisions in worry of making the wrong one.

Any advice from someone who has felt the same way?