jinnyann,

I can relate to feeling frustrated and even afraid over memories like these. It's been a big part of my story.

My best advice at this time though is to give yourself some space and time. The memories will take care of themselves if you don't force them. In time, as you are ready, you can face what you remember, a piece at a time. For me, I had to pace myself this way in order to make sure I stayed enough in my present, so my past wouldn't so dominate my every moment.

hope this helps.

be well,

mtd