Welcome! I nodded when I read your thoughts about no replies. We've all been there!

I welcomed my diagnoses of BPII. For many years I had been self medicating in vicious bursts with alcohol. It almost ruined my life. I could never figure out what was my problem; why I binge drank. That and debilitating depression, anxiety etc.....

Along with my other men's my PDoc put me on Lamotrigine last year and I have done so much better. So many things make sense and it's been a relief. But being here has been my biggest salvation. I don't feel alone and I don't have to figure things out by myself. MI no longer scares or embarrasses me and I'm a lot more easy on myself. I can read myself better so that I can take steps if I feel I'm heading in a bad direction.

It's so much nicer to be able to take care of myself rather than fighting "demons".

Good luck!