The goddess asked me earlier why I keep earplugs in during the day. I said it's a long story. I'm not sure she'd understand. It's still embarrassing to see the monitor I was b****y to the other night when she hadn't charged my ecig and I had to miss the smoke break. Last one of the day.

I'm embarrassed about everything. My therapist said she'd fight my conservator in court if she ever ordered me to have ECT, or tried to put me in a state hospital. I'm very relieved. And she said my $60/month does keep accumulating so that's good. I need a bathrobe too.