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ruh roh · Sep 14, 2017, 08:24 PM

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Originally Posted by awkwardlyyours

Not sure what to make of tonight's session.

Current T was really trying to help, I could see. And, yet...

We decided I needed to move to a different place (and suck up the cost of breaking the lease) immediately since I can't seem to step out of my house without panicking that I'll run into certain people.

She didn't seem too enthusiastic about my idea of just waiting to see if I'll get over my current set of coping skills (of driving most of the night or sleeping in my car after parking near a 24-hour restaurant).

She kept iterating that

Possible trigger:

it was an assault and criminal and No means No because I'd said to the couple that I'd like to stop and leave. I tried telling her that I hadn't been forceful and it was "less non-consensual" in that sense than my past experiences (and so, I'm not able to figure out why I'm having such over the top responses).

She said the distinction I'm making, makes no sense because non-consensual is non-consensual and that's it. I didn't argue the point coz I was exhausted.

I told her about a bunch of other stuff and it was painful to hear all she said -- that they were perpetrators who groom people and the whole thing had an incestuous quality to it. And yeah, all very familiar.

Upshot -- she gave me a bunch of places I could check out (I'm super finicky about where I'd live) and then after I left, texted me more options.

I realized that she and I have very different tastes when it comes to where we could live. So, while her suggestions were rather sweet, I'd never live there.

Hooray for this! I am so glad she put it this plainly to you about what those miscreants did to you. Hope you find a place/home that feels good.