I had to meet with Kashi tonight because his building is being shut down for the weekend.

We went over my health issues and improvement of my A1c numbers. Struggles with the nutritionist relationship winding down. My long term t said he thought I had disordered eating but I do not fit an existing eating disorder. Kashi told me that he thought my hunger and cravings are biological not emotional due to my diabetes. He said that he does work with people with eating disorders but by Texas law if someone has a disorder and is diabetic his license does not cover this. He has to be careful how to work with me on this. He can only focus on the behavioral aspects. So frustrating

Told him all the things I am trying to work on and how I don't have to bough resources and don't know how he can help me in some cases. He is thinking on it.

His office is moving in oct which is ramping up my driving anxiety. He is driving back and forth with me next session

He told me more about his own chronic health issue and chronic pain and how he deals with it. He said he doesn't want his patients to ever feel like they have to take care of him so he is careful what he discloses. He says in my case it is helpful to compare notes on similar issues and helps me feel connected. He said there is a bit of "mutual nurturing " in our relationship but he is ok with that.

At the end I asked about our hugs. Is he still ok with it? He thought I was trying to say I didn't want them any more. I said no just the opposite I just wanted to be sure I'm not asking too much. And I mentioned my last t and how I don't want to feel such a crush on a t again Was trying to tell Kashi my own feelings get confusing in therapy although I have no delusions that our relationship will ever be anything but professional.

I just don't know if he is the kind of t that can handle feelings of attraction that come up without throwing up reactionary boundaries. I just wanted to be sure he was ok with them. Maybe I was self sabotaging by bringing it up. Still good with hugs for now but I may have planted a seed of doubt ?