This happens to me almost anytime I have anything to drink. I'll keep asking myself if I did something until I almost believe it. I wonder if I cheated, even though I know I could never do that. My husband is almost always with me. I have to try to remind myself that. I also just feel pure guilt. When it gets bad, I don't ever want to leave the house. I'll dream about it, and then obsess about it.

I've never been diagnosed with OCD. I do have schizoaffective bipolar, ADHD, and panic disorder. However, my mom has severe OCD, more than any story I have ever heard.
I have noticed, and so has she, that I have and/or are developing a lot of the tendencies and compulsions she has, some new and some that I know I developed from learning from her as a child. I was a very stressed child.

She's had it since a child (she had an extremely traumatizing childhood).It seems to have gotten worse over the years, especially the contamination OCD. She feels on the verge of a breakdown, and although she reassures me that she would never hurt herself and do that to me, she just doesn't want to live most of the time. It's not a life. She doesn't enjoy anything. She always has something wrong with her physically, usually real, but sometimes it's psychosomatic, and compulsively obsessing about it and doing nothing but looking it up makes it so much worse and introduces new things to worry about.

Just know you are not alone with intrusive thoughts. I am curious, is there anything that has worked for you, or anyone who reads this? Do you know of any inpatient treatment centers for OCD?