I can relate Trace. I think for me, once a "bad" thing has been experienced, in my head it opens up the reality that these things can happen.

I just have to tell myself that I can take reasonable cautions, that I am safe at the moment and acknowledge, that I can't control everything in life. I also try to tell myself that I refuse to let my history, affect me doing things I want to do and that in terms of risk, such bad things are rare.

Grounding techniques can help me sometimes, I think for me it is a battle of my wills and as that previous post said, which Wolf I choose to feed.

Big hugs to you, sorry you missed your group session. You know where we are here on PC.