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Old Sep 15, 2017, 04:21 AM
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Shleigh Shleigh is offline
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Location: Long Beach
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Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5 View Post
Thanks for being so welcoming and comforting Shleigh. You got it exactly right I have spent so much damn time depressed, chained to the couch, falling asleep before the kids even went to bed, crying, hating life. I spent most of the last year self harming and consumed by thoughts of suicide. I finally have relief. The seroquel was a horrible experience as was being locked up in the psych ward. I can't go back to any of that. There is still some piece of me that says I should be responsible and work with my pdoc honestly but mostly I just want to enjoy this and that seems to be taking priority over safety, stability, family probably health too. But I'm pretty strong so a person or two doesnt scare me and I'm a good runner so when there are 10 people coming towards me in the deserted streets I can get home super fast lol. Might go out again soon they are probably passed out in their homes by now!
Of course! We all need it, as strong as we can be and try to convince ourselves that we don't. Depression is the worst, and so is being self-destructive, and the horrible cycle it creates. Enjoy feeling good and being healthy, but just be sure to reflect and make sure that the feeling isn't causing more harm than good.

How you feel with the seroquil is how I feel about Xanax and the antidepressants I was on. I would rather feel intense than not feel at all. Most of the times anyways! HA I can get bold too, and I'm too stubborn to listen a lot of times. I always joke, "I do what I want!" Well, it's kind of a joke. haha I was born opinionated, hard-headed, and independent. I've been told that my whole life. It's also one of my best qualities a lot of times. I've always succeeded in the things I am passionate about because I become obsessed, competitive, determined to prove others wrong. Usually our best and worst are one in the same.

Just don't be too bold to where you're unsafe. Be sure to keep an eye out. Also remember to trust your gut if you feel uncomfortable. Exercise is great for anxiety, so keep it up!
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"For there are brighter sides to life and I should because I've seen them...but not often."

Diagnosis:

Schizoaffective Bipolar Type
ADHD
Panic Disorder
Generalized Anxiety

Medications:

Lamictal
Adderall- Regular and XR
Klonopin

Thanks for this!
Tryingtobehappy5