yesterday I totally flew at someone on the phone, and I had no reason too at al- he was actually really helpful (and what made it worse, is that this guy was a professional who worked for a company)

I just said to him... either you do what I've rang you to do, or I am going to ****ing swing for you, and all your little buddies at the company aren't going to protect you.

it came from no where, and I feel really bad (this guy has no idea i'm even bipolar)

I am going to ring up today and apologize. I have too for my own sanity.

mood is all over the place though

I want to laugh.... cry.. scream, smile- be myself, hide...

sleep again was none existent last night. most of the night I was shaking. I am such a ****ing idiot for what I said, I didn't need to do that- I didn't need to

mood is bad today. really bad, though I am listening to my tranquillity cd which is helping a little