My mother is mentally ill undiagnosed, untreated. I've been gone since I was 18 mostly because of it. She is a hoarder just like you see on TV. If you touch her stuff she goes nuts. But there is so much more than that I believe after all of these years it might be schizophrenia.
I am "the anti-christ". She has spent her life hating me and doing everything she can to see me suffer and not succeed. She still is doing it. I never did anything, I didn't ask to be born. My mother is pure evil and I have no sympathy for her disease.
I have spent years calling agencies, police, lawyers, city offices and nothing. Nothing has been done. She is 76 and crazier than ever but she has money and a high IQ. I guess that's why she has gotten away with everything and never been arrested or had any consequences.
She seems to have all the symptoms I read about except the voices part and the harmful to self part. She has no friends and never has- she hates people, she has no emotions and is cold as ice, she doesn't bathe and dresses like a homeless person, hoarder and OCD, paranoid about certain things, hates loud noise, she thinks I'm going to kill her or that doctors will try to kill her so she doesn't go, she had a fantasy about the 2 relationships she was in that these men would marry her (she's never been married) it seems to me they just used her and didn't want a relationship. She blames me for that too. She's a compulsive liar. After 49 years I'm still finding secrets that she lied about.
There's no helping her. She doesn't want it and the more I fight the more she hates me. I pretended for many years tried to stay on her good side by just going along with her delusional world but I refuse to do that. It is not working for me anymore and I get nothing out of it since that's not a relationship. Do any of you just walk away from family? She is already dead to me.
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