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I have abuse issues in my past. Everytime I date, I get so turnoved off when a guy tries to touch me. I keep thinkign.. when I find the right guy that I'm attracted to that I won't feel like this, but im never attracted to them. The closer they get, the more disgusted i am. Im not sure . Im afriad i'll never fix this part of me and dont know how. :-(