Yes the power dynamic in therapy can cause very intense feelings. It's what makes her feel so much like a Mum (mothers are of course very powerful in relation to their small children). It sounds like you have desperate needs from early childhood that you are trying to replay or fulfil. Theres nothing to be ashamed of, these feelings are common in therapy and your T should understand them.
There's nothing wrong with being gay but are you sure you are? I might be wrong but it sounds as if you are still unsure and trying to understand your sexuality. As others have said, it is very common for women to feel attraction towards a same-sex therapist, no matter what their orientation.
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