Hey welcome to pc ((((((just_me88))))))))))

Sounds like you've had a pretty rough year!

Let me just say a few things...

A) You're not melodramatic. I've experienced melodrama, and what you've said here is NOT it.
B) Everyone's pain and experiences are different. Some people deal better with some things than others. That doesnt make you a bad person, or weak or anything like that. It just means you're better at coping with some things rather than others. We can't all be good at everything all the time.

I'm sorry about your friends. That's always rough, no matter how you lose someone you're close to - it always hurts a heckuva lot.

I'm sorry that your family is disappointed in you. Seems like one can never do enough to make everyone happy - least of all our own families. Are *you* disappointed in yourself, for what you've done (excluding letting your family down)? At the end of it, the only person you're accountable to is yourself, but family's tend to forget that important fact.

I'm glad you found us, continue to talk out whatever is on your mind. We'll listen.