The new guy was over and i was talking and talking my head off. Then i got really quiet. He asked me if i was ok. I said yea. But then my brain felt foggy. Really badly. And i started to het get anxiety. So i asked him to leave because i was scared an episode was coming on. I knew this feeling all too well. Its just like my major episode 3 years ago.

After he left i guess it just hit

I had told him i was repeating words in my head.

I didnt want him to see me have an episode