I just did some analysis of my bullet journal keeping...and so far I've record 25 days in the last 37 days as having hallucinations of some sort. It's rather startling, but will prove to be good data to give the pdoc in a few months when we meet again.

I'm coming to terms with the idea that I may be stuck having them, at exchange for being on a low dose of APs. My wife and I were talking it over and agreed that the delusions are what we really want to prevent from happening. So if 5mg of Zyprexa is all it takes to combat that, then that's what it will be. I will work through the hallucinations in CBT.

The next question is...if this continues, and I've had psychotic symptoms like this off and on since Jan 2016, and the voices stay persistent...I wonder, does it possibly mean I could be developing some form of schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder? It's scary to think about.