WOW! I was just thinking about you (As I cleared out my PMs from recent past...before 2005 begins..) and wondering if you would post soon! You must have caught my energy vibes. I am so glad to hear from you, and so sorry to hear what you have to say!

You are not stupid. People who take advantage of others are professionals at it, and even if someone was totally healthy, they can still be conned. None of this is your fault.

I'm unsure of what "faith" your pastor is... but I sure hope you misunderstood him! You do what you need to, and I'm sorry he isn't there to support you. What I really hope is he was trying to help you lessen your burden. Police charges, court etc is very stressful!

Ok... a nutritionist can not only remind you, but be another member of your support team. YOU NEED ALL YOU CAN GET on such a team. And yes, you probably "know" what you need to do, but having someone who is not stressed keep you on track would be a good thing! Plus she should be up to date with anything new to try.

The "new year" is just another day. One foot in front of the other... day by day... that's the only way we can do it when we are so stressed!