I've been dissociating more then usual lately. I either just stop what I'm doing. Like spacing out. Or getting this hazy vision type thing and having some sort of amnesia. In that instance, it takes a couple of hours after the incident has passed to realize it has happened.

Sometimes I will talk to someone like they are another person. Or I just say out of character things in general. It's weird. Like one time I started talking to my brother like he was the dog. I just kind of checked out and started talking to him the way I talk to my dog.

I am not very familiar with dissociating. Like I haven't discussed it much or done a lot of research. So I don't really understand what's going on when it happens.

I feel incredibly stressed out and I feel awfully guilty after it happens.

Why do I feel so guilty after it? I'm not really doing anything wrong. I'm just out of it. I don't think anyone really notices.

Sometimes, I dissociate when it's really sunny outside and the sun is in my eyes for several minutes. This type Has been happening since I was 7.

I have some control over it. If that's even possible.

If I concentrate real hard, I can make myself focus on the right now. I just have to be aware of my surroundings and play back each moment of what is going on at that time. Today I was at the store and I kept saying to myself: "do you remeber doing this a few seconds ago?"

It does work. Even though I struggle with it sometimes.

Does anyone have any comments or suggestions?

Thanks.

BTW, I did mention it to my therapist and her answer was

"Oh, your googling stuff again?"

That's not fair. I've had dissociation long before I even knew what it was called. It's very frightening when it happens. Basically this has happened two other times. With my doctor and another therapist.