Wow! Willow, this is amazing, you are amazing. I agree that DBT skills like emotional regulation and distress tolerance can help anyone, mentally ill or not. Thank you for not only sharing me the links but also sharing your understanding and experience with it.

As far as I know there are 5 steps that we would experience after traumatic events; denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. My C-PTSD somehow makes me trapped in anger and depression. Often those feelings happen without any real trigger. I don't know what I'm angry about. I don't know why am I depressed. Acting opposite my emotions seems like the solution.

I also have a bad habit of expecting negative things to happen in my life. I often dissociate when I feel happy. I feel that negative feeling and negative thoughts are me, not just a part of me. Trying to do multiple positive things won't be easy, but I'll give it a try along with the other techniques that I can find on those links.

I really appreciate this. Thank you for spending time just to help me and people like me who don't have access for a proper mental health care. Reading your story somehow brings out the memory that I had forgotten, which is how I was before all of these pills and insanity. Thank you so so much