I have a diagnosis of cyclothymia and BPD, although my psych said it could be bipolar 2 instead of cyclothymia. I'm on the bipolar spectrum somewhere.

As my GP said 'having both is particularly challenging'

I find it harder to come to terms with the BPD part than the bipolar part. Some days I think I don't have BPD and whatever type of bipolar I have is super ridiculously cycling. Other days I think the BPD part is correct. I'm confused as to why everything has been so awful in the past couple of years as I haven't always been this bad. Im 35 and was only diagnosed earlier this year. Im on a shed load of medication and I'm in therapy which seems to be making everything worse so far.

It's horrible and I hate it.