Hope,

Have you tried meeting people where the possibility of a true friendship is realistic? For example, at a church, a book club, a pottery class, etc.? There are tons of groups on meetup.com...check your area and groups that interest you.

In my area, there are even groups that are comprised of people that feel socially isolated and looking for friends. There's over 200 members and they have a calendar where they ha e scheduled events like seeing a movie, board game night (Monopoly, Scrabble, etc.), meet for coffee or lunch, etc. And there are mental health support groups.

Have you tried to be friends with anyone where there is no prior medical/client relationship?

I sense that you are strongly wanting someone to take care of you. That is possible with serious romantic relationships and supportive friends. However, we need to learn how to and for ourselves, too.

Relationships require reciprocity. A T, for example, that is a temporary, professional relationship where all the focus is on you. Ts, doctors, pharmacists ..... these aren't true friends. They have their own lives outside of work.

Have you ever had a platonic or romantic relationship that didn't involve you as a patient or a pharmacy customer?

If not, why? This isn't a criticism. Do you know these people that are your health providers are unavailable? Is it possible that is subconsciously why you desire friendship? Or do you need a relationship where all needs are about you only?

Thinking of you. Getting to the root cause about your repeated behavior and boundaries may be insightful.