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Originally Posted by Shazerac
Frequently when manic or hypomanic we see the doctor as the enemy. That's "normal" I also tend to turn on my husband and become convinced that his sole purpose on earth is to drive me nuts...or more nuts. I dunno  |
I've become very angry at my husband and paranoid that he is not a nice person even though he treats me very well even with me behaving this way. I REALLY hate the Dr's though(except in my fantasies lol)
I texted my husband. I just said I might need more help this morning was really bad, my thoughts are getting worse and that I don't know if I can tell the Dr's the truth. I told him how I feel about the Dr's and that I am confused about what I need to do.
Yesterday I told him the only way I was going ip was if the cops arrested me but today it feels like that is a real possibility. This is escalating too fast, I have spent all my time today playing keyboard and laying in the bath because I feel it's a safe place when I have bad thoughts. I guess one horrible uncomfortable step at a time is all I can do.