I've always felt like this, online and in real life too.

I'm on a few other mental health forums and although they are pleasant and friendly places, I haven't managed to connect with anyone. Although I'm not being ignored, I don't think anybody truly likes me, it just seems like they tolerate me. There are lots of cliques and people will often engage in banter that excludes others, but at the same time, I really don't think that it's meant in a bad way. Those people have managed to develop a rapport with one another which means they'll be more inclined to talk amongst themselves.

Feeling unwanted is incredibly difficult to deal with, especially if we don't know what's "wrong" with us, if anything. I think that some people, even if they have issues, just seamlessly blend into their environments without thinking or doing much. I wish I knew what their secret was! Maybe they possess a natural charm or are simply more relatable; perhaps it's just luck? Sometimes we look in the wrong places and it's hard to know where to go from there.

I like to think that I'll one day finally find my place somewhere, and I hope you do too