Peanut222, I understand. Ever since I started school I've felt that way. With every year that has passed I feel like parts of myself have wasted away, and most days I feel like an empty husk with nothing going for me. I didn't realise when it was happening because, for me, it was a slow process, and I'm only just trying to come to terms with it. I don't know who I am.

You've managed to acknowledge your feelings fairly quickly so I think that there's time for you to deal with these issues. Are there any friends or family members you can talk to? Maybe you could ask them if they have noticed any changes in your behaviour and take it from there. If you don't want to disclose anything to them, if you haven't already, you could look into finding a therapist. If I had managed to access the help I needed when my problems started, I might not have been in this position now. Going private would be your best bet but it can be very expensive, and NHS waiting lists, depending on where you live, are overly long.