Ohhhhhhhhhhh Perna. That was dirty!!! LOL
::: smacks Perna's hands ::::

It just kills me, you know? Before she was my "counselor" I liked "M" just fine. I thought she was competent, capable, and we got along fine. Now, I avoid her like the plague. What is she going to see? What might I say that could taken a certain way? Why am I so afraid of her? I KNOW her! I shouldn't be afraid!

I've been in counseling before. . .have a good history with it EXCEPT for female counselors.

I asked my supervisor could I see someone else, and she was like, "Because you work with M?" And I said, "No, it doesn't have anything to do with that. I have a problem trusting women and I'm not sure this is going to work." I was honest, open. Should have been ok, righ? WRONG. Supervisor sits down, takes my hands in hers, and says, "Well, maybe then, this is the right time, the right place, and M is the right person. You can't carry this forever." Grrrrrr

I hate this. I HATE this. I don't hate women. . .I have friends. We aren't touchy feely, but we're buds, you know? I just don't like female therapists. I can't open up to them. Can't trust them. Can't be real with them.

And so here I sit. . .rather than be on assignment and doing the field work I love, I'm now an "admin."

Gag