You have to be 100% with both sexes, not 50% with one :-) Relationships take both sides of us.

You're not too old for new tricks; I'm 57 and still learning the new tricks. You can only fix it by getting the anger and fear and all that other stuff about your mother out (standing in the rain, you won't drown). I had that stepmother, sometimes made the wicked witch of the west look friendly. My T was female and it turned out well. Only took 18 years of therapy with her, literally, LOL.