Rebecca -- my heart breaks for you. I have been struggling with my own daughter's MI for a couple years. It isn't easy. My daughter has been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 while IP, with BP traits, and MDD, GAD out patient. Her out-patient PDoc doesn't think she has Bipolar 2, but anti-depressants trigger hypomania so she is on Tegratol in addition to two anti-depressants (an SSNRi and a trycylic).

She definitely has control issues and has been very angry at me for a long time. I have been very confused about this because I have always given her input and I find it hard to find cases where I have been overly controlling of her. When her grades started dropping in 10th grade and it was obvious she was no longer in the GPA range to get scholarships for the colleges she was interested in I did tell her that starting at a community college then transferring to a University was probably her best option unless she could get her grades back up.

That said, her anger his primarily been internalized or has been passive-aggressive. I've never felt threatened by her, and she has always been very good about letting me know where she is going and when she will be home. As a matter of fact for a long time I was just hoping for her to go do more.

She recently moved out and is living with her boyfriend and they are doing good. Unfortunately, she just informed us the other night that she can't handle college, she's behind and just not interested in it. She's dropping out. She also can't handle work because of anxiety. I'm devastated because I was hoping that school would go good for her this time and that if she could at least get her associates, that she would be able to get a job that had some growth potential. I have lost hope that this will happen now.

Anyway I guess my point in all this is that I understand how this can impact you. I have CPTSD, have had it my whole life but didn't realize it until the last year or so. The situation with my daughter has pushed me to the breaking point. I struggle daily with depression and/or anxiety. I am now trying to figure out how I can help her work on her anxiety so that someday she will be able to go to school, or work, or both. I also know from experience that if I recommend something she will most likely disregard it. She turned 19 recently, so technically, as an adult, I really have no control over what she does. Still, however; I want to help her find a solution. She is on my health insurance. It's so hard and I can only imagine how hard it's been for you.

I'll just finish up by recommending that you make sure to take care of yourself. I have to remind myself that I need to do that too.