Feeling unwanted and an outsider and being depressed always me think about the chicken and the egg conundrum. Am I feeling unwanted because I'm depressed? Or am I feeling depressed because I'm unwanted. I don't know the answer.

I'm 62 years old now. I've never fit in except for a bad crowd that was doing me harm. Left that nonsense behind decades ago. Ive felt lonely all my life. But I have gradually come to accept that this is just who I am. I'm not a go with the crowd type of person. I never fit into cliques. I don't know how to reach out to people to make friends. I feel like the mouse in the corner.

You are not alone feeling unwanted. All I can say is it's not true.