my biggist fear has always been growing old, getting to like 50 and looking back on my life and thinking well... I have litirally nothing to show for it at all. no qualifications, no job, nothing. I've not even changed society

don't get me wrong, I don't want to be a scientist or an inventor, even an author of a bestselling book.

I just think it stems from..

well, when I die, I want to be remembered for something, not just.. well, yeah, here was someone who accomplished nothing- just moand constantly about mental illness and their issues.



i'm also terrified of being outside, it's been years since I was even okay to stand in my garden.
cancer.. while it's not like a big thing for me, it crosses my mind more and more lately (I think it's because so many people get it, and their are so many types)

other health issues related to what i'm doing to my body



birning alive

being involved in a car accident

this forum closing (then I won't have anything!)

that if people find out who my alters are, I am going to be ruined