This may sound funny coming from me because of the bad therapy experiences I've been through...but what's wrong or undesirable about idealizing T?

It's not a secret that I idealize previous T. I was sooo lost which makes me extremely grateful PrevT 'found' me. It's incredible she didn't exploit me, too. She 'saved' me. I can't adequately articulate how close I feel to her. I dream about her all the time.

I brought it up in therapy with T yesterday. T explained it but I still don't understand. I will talk to T about it again.

It's confusing.