How did your T explain it?

Like I said in other post, I recently told my T that I need her to be as I make (see) her to be. This came up because I hosted a game night. The first one of these, I invited her to the event and she declined (was going to be out of town). I really wanted her at the event. This one, I told her that I didn't want her there because of needing/wanting to see her as I see her. I felt that if I was to see at game night, I might see behaviors or mannerisms that doesn't fit my picture of her and that might take away from my therapy. I know and strongly believe that I only see elements of T's personality. I believe what I see is genuine but very limited. I need to feel that level of attentiveness at this time in my life by this person. I am ok with this information and place in my therapy and development.