Hi, there,

Absolutely, you may, though I'm not sure I can offer a cogent response. I used to enjoy writing, but lately, it's like pulling teeth. At any rate ...

Much of my self-hatred stems from past actions, to be perfectly honest. I've struggled with anxiety and depression for a while now, and it's taken a toll on my family. I've gotten better at dealing with my feelings, with keeping them to myself, but there was a time when I over-burdened my friends, and everyone around me. Many of them have moved on, but I can't seem to forgive myself. It's even worse now that I'm having a hard time with things like doing chores (though I'm usually pretty good at "faking it").

As of late, I've also had a hard time managing my schoolwork. I'm struggling with high school. Not because it's too hard - far from it - but because I lack the motivation to get done. I'm trying, but I feel like I'm dragging myself through molasses. And, quite frankly, I'm done. I'm fed-up with my inability to do anything. I'm sure this sounds petty - and it is - but I used to be very driven, so it's hard to lose that part of myself ...

There's so much more I could say, but I won't. I don't want to make this post too long. I appreciate your asking, though; it was interesting to reflect on the "why's," which isn't something I usually do. Thank you.