Been a couple weeks, i think but i've no real concept of time, since i was on here. This has been.... a weekend from hell but shouldn't be. This weekend we did 2 birthday party's for my oldest and youngest kids since their birthdays are only a week apart. Yesterday with my wife's family, which i could of lived without dealing with, and today with my family. Was to... as my wife put's it, peopley. But what really triggered my demons was opening the PO Box and seeing two late payment reminders since i can't pay all of my bills. It just a reminder that things are not ok right now with not enough money coming in and not hearing back from any of the places i've applied to for either a part time job or a new job. I know things will eventually work out. But only because my wife keeps telling me things will. i don't know what to do. I no longer have faith in a higher power though my wife keeps telling me i need to find my own path in hopes that it will help. Just been a very.... hard day for me.