A little off topic, I wanted to share what has been going on for me: I have to say that my obsessing and needs are changing around my transference. It used to be that if I did any emailing between session, waiting for a reply was extremely distressing. At times, just the time between sessions was painful.

Now, I still frequently check for replies, I am not in distress while waiting and the time waiting can be much longer with no distress. I still cannot handle a missed session (planned or unplanned) and I miss her between sessions; the time is not painful. If a session needs to be moved so that I still see her 2x week, I am able to adjust to the change and do not find the "normal time" a distraction.

The maternal transference is still intact. There are times where she is needed/wanted as mommy. Right now, I am hoping that she can be mommy for some of tomorrow's session. Tomorrow may come and I might not have that want/need. I know if tomorrow comes and I still want her to be that for me, she will and maybe that is why the feelings in the transference is changing for me.