I'm thinking maybe I need to check in. I'm not having good thoughts,//trigger// I don't think I can do life right now.//trigger// I'm afraid to tell my husband, he'll be so disappointed. I tried to fake it through the weekend but I can't fight it or fake it for much longer. I don't know, I feel so guilty for being depressed. I called my mom and cried, I'm sure she's disappointed to. I'm such a freaking loser and failure. Why can't I cope with life like normal adults do. I'm rediculous