Thank you for the response. My psychiatrist says that the DSM does paint BPD in a negative light and that it's a shame because he thinks people with BPD are very special. Whatever that means.

I've been committed to personal growth, asset management, and self help. I feel like all I do is self help stuff and it's been a lot. I still haven't been able to work through the early childhood trauma and I know that this is where the real work lies. I just am trying to be stable.

I was recently 5150'ed for the first time after 6 months of agoraphobia and severe depression and anxiety. I couldn't leave the house. I'm doing more now but I still have my social anxiety, claustrophobia issues when I am out in the world and I seem to take on other people's energies and I get so easily overwhelmed. I also experience my emotions severely and I break every time I get a really low low which happens at least one time a week.

I want to be a mom but I want to be stable and not be all scared and depressed in front of my child so I keep waiting to be "okay". I don't even know if that is possible.

I start the year long DBT class in November and I have heard this is effective.

Thank you for reading.