While depressed I was extremely exhausted but as I improved about 12 days ago my energy levels increased, though not to hypomanic levels. I was discharged from hospital after an 8 week inpatient stay. In the last two days my energy levels have decreased significantly and my mood has gone flat. I am just exhausted. It was a severe episode so maybe I'm just recovering. For the first few days after discharge I was so excited to be free and overdid it.

Now memories of the episode are flooding me and I'm scared of another episode in the future, one I won't survive. I'm over being tossed from episode to episode with only months of respite in between if I include the recovery period too. I'm afraid that if I have another episode I won't be able to bear the hopelessness. Basically, I am wondering if anyone else experiences profound exhaustion after bad episodes. I am hoping this will pass and give me back my life.