I feel like I bumble around like a clumsy puppy when it comes to friendships with women. I do have some friends from high school, from writing club, from cuddle parties. I think I try to take whatever is offered in friendship, to not close the door to any type of intimacy. I have boundaries in place but my world is lonely, so I try to choose love whenever possible. I always wished I could have my mom in my corner, or my gran. I come from a family of alcoholics and I was always down the list of priorities. Now, I try to see that a friend having a cup of coffee with me, is just that, and enjoy it.