I hate being a failure. How did everything come to this? Why can't I do ANYTHING in my life anymore? Why do I simply not know anymore how to do all the things, even the things I was best at before? How can someone loose all their skills??? I am incapable of anything and I am the only one who could change this but since I don't know how to do ANYTHING anymore, I'm just helpless and don't know what to do! And the longer I don't do anything, the more I loose the skills and the knowledge I had before!
This is a vicious circle and I am the only one who ould change my situation but I can't because I am incapable of it!
this is no life anymore! I am incapable of everything! How am I supposed to lead a life? Every day of my life is a waste of time and I hate just wasting my life away and doing nothing while I become more and more dump and more and more unhealthy physically! But I don't know how to do anything! My head is just empty, I'm totally clueless and I fail at everything!
I cannot even accomplish one single task! I had to write an academic assignment for University since months and I didn't even start yet, and basically my time for this is over now! Why do I not know how to do this anymore?! I have done those things before and was able to do them!
When I was still at school, I had been one of the best students and absolutely knew how to do things like that! And now I have no clue anymore ! How is that possible??!!
And in my leisure time I don't know what to do with myself either!
What is this?! How can someone become like this?!
I can't stand this anymore! I can't live like this anymore!