Hey Velcro I just saw your post in the session thread. I'm gonna respond here. While part of my motivation to get clean is to get back to work in therapy and to see T... The majority of me wants to be clean because I am so freaking tired of chasing a high. And all that entails.. Especially financially. And the isolation and lying. It tears me apart but that part of my brain that needs to be high doesn't care
I'm trying to take it back and retrain again. It's definitely hard so using T as a temporary goal point is helping me pull thru it. But I'm not doing it 100% for him. This is my life and I want something better