Hello, nice to meet everyone. I'm slipping so much in the past few days and I could use some help. I don't know where to post this but if someone knows better, please tell me where to ask for help. This is going to be a long read...
A few days ago, I got back from a gym workout and saw.... shimmering lines in my eyes. Sat through it and got a headache. I was honestly just bored and stupid mistakes but I started browsing eye conditions.... and ran into retinal detachment and blindness.
Ever since then, I'm struggling with anxiety, developed a phobia about losing my vision. I got a full dilated exam the next day and my doc said my retinas was healthy but I just can't shake it off. I see floaters, right now, on the screen and I haven't seen them before.... or maybe I did and just didn't care but these little things have become a nightmare for me. It's so bad, that a few hours ago, I wasn't sure if the temporary loss of light was my sight going blind or a power outage (common in my area) I know it was most likely a power outage but my brain just doesn't accept it.
I have this phobia that I'll just go blind in an instant, I'm scared of sleeping because I fear I'll wake up blind. Does the human body even work that way? People going blind for life in an instant with no warning signs? I don't know after all that I've read.... I've had no serious symptoms, no vision loss, I can see perfectly for miles but something just feels wrong with my vision and eyes... dunno if it's because I'm hype aware...
I literally have everything in my life, no shortage of money, everything that I want I get because I have an awesome family but this vision anxiety has gotten me depressed and I've barely went out in the past few weeks. My exams are next month and I can't study a bit. I am terrified of going blind but it's more because I don't want my parents to suffer for something that happens to me.
Can anyone help? Some assurance, just give me some help that I'll not go blind for life in a blink of an eye.
Thank you for reading. I wish all of you well.