I have nobody to support me where I am. I have no family left that I feel close to and no family at all that live in the same city that I am in.

I have never felt close to my step father's side of the family, largely because his family is full of Southern Baptist Christians and I am an Atheist. When I go to visit them, I have to put on a mask and pretend to be a Christian and go to church and pray and what not, otherwise, I would most likely be ostracized from the family.

Other then them, the only other living family members that I am aware of that I have left are a couple of uncles that stay to themselves and a cousin that's in prison. One of my uncles lives in an RV and gets disability and spends all of his disability money on weed and beer and the other uncle is homeless and lives on people's couches.

So as you can see, my family dynamic is pretty much non existent.

I have never felt more alone in this world.