Please accept my condolences on the loss of your step-father. I am so very sorry you're grieving. He sounds like he was a good man. You aren't alone. You have us. I know it's not the comforting arms of someone IRL but I'd like to think we are part of your support system

I guess I would say it's not good to make major decisions in the middle of loss and that one reason to continue fighting is your answer might be right around the corner right out of sight. Sending big hugs.