Love will happen again for you!! You are blessed to have had 2 wonderful (although rocky at times) relationships.

Loving yourself is the first step. I have not been in a relationship in over 5 years bc I knew I had to help myself first. Focus on yourself, your work, your positive qualities. I know what it's like to be borderline and be without a relationship. It is even more difficult for us bc we need that sense of stability.

Look at DBT, counseling and meds. They can all work wonders.

God bless