I feel so alone and unwanted. I feel like my family doesn't want me and because I have no one else, there is no point in anything. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm so tired of trying to get help and to better myself and there are always so many obstacles in the way. At this point, what am I even trying for anymore? After my relationship with my husband, I don't think I want to get involved with anyone else anymore. I've ruined all of my friendships. I don't know how to be normal. Just making conversation is so difficult for me. I'm so isolated and lonely. I miss my dog. I miss feeling kind of "normal" at times when I was with my husband and we would do things together, but that's over now.