I find that I'm just really different than other people around me. I mean I'm 20 but I have never dated anyone. I used to have some friends back in high school but I don't really have any left anymore. I mean I'm just really introverted and it's really hard for me to open up to people. I don't have any close friends. I am really shy. I have low self-esteem.

I don't like going out. When we have activities at our school, I usually find plenty of excuses to not go because if I go, I'll just be having anxiety about it days before. And when I do go, most of the time I'll just be hoping for it to end so I can get back home and like just be alone or with my family.

I know I remember back in high school I used to be teased a lot and I think that affected me and might be in part a possible reason for my low self-esteem.

I don't know what is going on with me. I thought at first it was only my being shyness but I've come to think about the possibility of me having a condition beside just shyness.

Any help on that would be highly appreciated. Thanks in advance !