Thank you Kathy...

ADD has been running my life as long as I can remember. It has already RUINED so many potentially WONDERFUL things for me. This damn disease!!!!! I have always felt like I don't have control over some of the things I do (ex - the way I get when things don't go exactly as I have planned in my head... my short fuse..)

My parents were of no help... I was just a "brat"... They are very anti-psych, and refused to ever try to find out what was wrong with me. I have physical problems too that were never addressed growing up because my parents wouldn't take me to the doctor for them either. I feel so much RESENTMENT that it took so long to get diagnosed.

I still could have gone to the doctor before now, and that's my fault... I waited until now, I'm 24, until I felt like I was at the end of my rope...

I want to be a good mom (I have 3 kids - 2.5, 18 months, 8 months). I want to be a good wife.

I don't want to learn to deal with it, I want it to GO AWAY. But I know THAT'S not going to happen.

No I'm not on any meds yet. My therapist hasn't even mentioned it, but when I go Wednesday I am going to.