Mmm. Yeah, okay. I don’t like telling the world about my meds but I’ve been having panic attacks since 1985 and have taken 2-10mg Xanax per day (pro, pop 4mg sublingually) since then. Now on four 1mg tab daily.

Panic attack: 1985 - driving on 285, having a heart attack. Pull over in rush-hour traffic with the certain knowledge that I’m soon to be dead. Police. Ambulance. Hospital. Oops, gee, sorry mister - it’s all in yer head.

Anxiety: hesitate to say ‘attack.’ Generalized Anxiety Disorder. A notion, a disturbance, a feeling, an intuition, that something that you can only guess at, isn’t right. Suspicions. Yeah, slight paranoia. My hairbrush is on the floor? Is my door locked? Out of kilter, out of sorts. Wow, thinking feels... off. Do I dare to eat a peach? This shirt is dirty - no, I’m dirty! Racing, racing, racing queer thoughts of a generalized discomfort, sudden loss of well-being.

Get it? For me: panic, I’m dying. Anxiety: something’s effed up but I’m not sure what and, Jesus in the Butt with a Stick, I just can’t stop thinking.

Long-time Xanax Addict (no, no, no, never ABUSED the effers!) here and it helps... you won’t get a script today but I guess any benzo (if you can get it) might help PRN. Shows up in any blood/piss test.

In state w/med weed? Godsend. Calm w/neuropathy pain relief. FYI.

Anxiety, friend. Take care and action, please?